RESOLUTION

My main goal for 2009 is to find
PEACE&HARMONY
in my life.
Angee has noticed, and made me notice that I've been very angry lately [and hostile]. Time to be a bit happier =)
Happy New Year
Class of 2009<3

not ready

I've kinda checked into the fact that...
I'M NOT READY TO GROW UP.
I can't do things on my own, I have trouble speaking to people, writing is impossible, I can't fill out an application without getting seriously befuddled.
Either I need to stop aging, or just DIE x_x

Accents

Especially Asian accents drive me CRAZY. I hate them. My mom is pissed off because I refused to help her finish writing her stupid report because her words didn't fucking make sense and her accents literally drove me to tears. I HATE MY OWN FUCKING PEOPLE. I hate FOBs that only speak their own damn language all day, and its even worse when I actually understand them. Its like you don't want to understand them but you can't help it. I hate accents in general. Boston accents & Southern accents are the worse. I can't even stand the Staten Island/Long Island/Brooklyn/New York accent or whatever you call them. SOGIGASGOPUDFBLSRUDHUIOHNOHUTYASFLKBZHJDFHOT. LIFE SUCKS >=[

friends & their boy/girlfriends

Why the hell is is that every time someone gets a boyfriend or girlfriend they completely shut out the people who have been there for them for years and years. WTF this has happened so many times, its getting fucking ridiculous. DON'T PRETEND I'M NOT THERE ON OCCASION AND THEN WHEN YOU BREAK UP, YOU EXPECT ME TO CATCH YOU WHEN YOU'RE FALLING. Don't put me as your last priority and then expect yourself to be my first.
I FCKING HATE PEOPLE!!!

La La La La LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I think I was wrong. I know who my friends truly are.
Karaoke today. 4&1/2 hrs and my throat is sore >.<
<3angeladenniskaikristine
We've established a new group: Me, Angee & Dennis
totally [R.A.D.]
Yay

Merry Christmas

...or is it. I'm feeling really alone this holiday season...actually I've been feeling alone all year. Why does it feel like I'm losing friends. I always get depressed by this situation every so often. Its like, my best friends...they have other people as their first priority and I'm just here in last place. My wish this Christmas is to really know that I have people there for me almost whenever, and not only when they find the time to deal with me. Honestly, I'm not enjoying this year. I just want to move on and start college already. I just want to skip the rest of everything this year, including senior trip, prom AND graduation. I just want my yearbook, a chance for everyone to sign it and I'm out. Nothing really seems be working in my favor. I need to get out of the house as much as I possibly can. I need...to feel complete...

Dear Bitch

You are by far the worst sibling one can ever have. I don't know what I've ever done to you to make you treat me the way you do, but this is how you fucking treat me, and have done so for my entire life. 10 THINGS I SERIOUSLY FUCKING HATE ABOUT YOU
1. You treat me as a servant - The world has to revolve around you and we have to treat you as a fucking queen. This has transformed from "go to the store and fetch me some _________" to "come with me to __________ and help me carry pounds and pounds of shit home that you can use, but I'll fucking yell at you later for it." I'm not a fucking dog and I don't deserve to be treated as one. Just because you are 6+ years older than me doesn't give you the right to treat me as a slave.
2. Whatever you say goes (extending #1) - How is it that every fucking time I'm doing something to relax, you always have to fucking interrupt me. If I'm watching tv, "Give me the remote," but if its the other way around "go watch tv somewhere else." What the hell is fucking wrong with you. Why the hell do you always get what you want. Once again, just because you're older, it does not give you the right to fucking take control of everything.
3. You're full of yourself - Don't tell me to fucking listen to your how your day goes, what happened at work, what you bought, and then tell me to STFU when I try to say something about my day. Unless you want to hear what happened to my day, DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO LISTEN TO YOURS CUZ I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.
4. You're so fucking greedy (kinda falls under #3) - Why is it that you ALWAYS try to find a way to rip someone off. Whether it is buying something to get the free gift, and returning everything, buying something on sale and then returning it for the retail price, or just giving away gifts that were given to you. I know you may not like the gifts people give you but ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS. Gifts from the people you care about should have some sentimental value that makes you keep it even if you don't like it. Since none of them have any sentimental value, that shows that you don't care for anyone but yourself.
5. You take advantage of people - You found yourself a job, now why can't you stop abusing other people like me, and mom & dads money. Seriously, its time that you stop depending on other people, and then milking it dry. You only do this to us because we're family, but who knows how you're treating other people. DON'T YOU HAVE A CONSCIENCE OR A HEART TO THINK ABOUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE FEEL?
6. Move Out Already - Seriously, why don't you just do what most grown-ups do, get a drivers license, get a boyfriend, get a well paying job, AND GET THE FUCK OUTTA THE HOUSE. WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE, AND DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH YOUR BAD ATTITUDE ANYMORE. YOU'RE FUCKING 23 GOING ON 24, GET THE FUCK OUT!
7. Stop trying to tell me what to do with my life - Yeah, I know you screwed up your life and you want me to do a lot better but I know what decisions I want to make and I don't need you to tell me what to do. You're like the stereotypical mother when their child is applying for college, "LIVE MY DREAM". I know what I want to do with my life, and I don't intend on majoring in URBAN STUDIES, like seriously, you chose the major NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT, I know I can and will do a lot better
8. You do not respect my privacy&personal space - Okay, so I don't have a lock on my door. BUT IF YOU SEE SOMEONE STILL ASLEEP ON A SATURDAY/SUNDAY MORNING, YOU DO NOT BARGE INTO THEIR ROOM AND SIT ON THEM. THE DOOR IS FUCKING CLOSED FOR A REASON. You always make yourself too comfortable in my room, going through stuff I don't want you to touch. You are also not to make yourself comfortable in my room, AND THEN FUCKING KICK ME OUT OF IT. YOU'RE A GUEST IN MY ROOM SO WHY CAN'T YOU TREAT ME WITH RESPECT?
9. You take things from me - ever since I was a little girl and I saw my little hello kitty piggy bank thing in the kitchen with the lock broken and money missing, I knew for a fact that I CANNOT trust you. I know you take money from me because you always spend money shopping for yourself even if you don't have the money for it. How many more useless clothing and junk are you going to stock up on now? AND STOP TAKING THINGS FROM ME WITHOUT ASKING, it would be nice to get a heads up on things you need rather than tearing up my room looking for something you don't know the location of and leave the mess there.
10. YOU JUST DON'T REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU HURT PEOPLE - did you ever stop and think what everyone else feels like when you're fucking getting into arguments with them day and night. The only reason why I wanted mom to come back as soon as possible cuz I know she pisses you off, cuz she knows how you treat me. NO ONE CARES HOW YOU FEEL CUZ YOU'RE THE ONE WHO PISSES EVERYONE IN THIS FAMILY OFF.
Do you see how much I hate you and everyone else hates you? You don't know how to fucking treat people. And with all this hostility, I will end up fucking KILLING YOU ONE DAY. I HOPE YOU DO READ THIS AND GET A SENSE OF HOW FUCKED UP YOU REALLY ARE, CUZ IF IN THE NEAR FUTURE I DO END UP COMMITTING SUICIDE BECAUSE OF YOU, I HOPE THAT GUILTY CONSCIENCE WILL FOLLOW YOU TO YOUR GRAVE, AND I KNOW THEN YOU WILL HAVE A GUILTY CONSCIENCE CUZ WHEN I'M GONE, YOU WILL WITHOUT A DOUBT HAVE NO ONE.
Oh and the reason I didn't help you shovel snow was because your knocking on the door FUCKING WOKE ME UP FROM MY NAP. & plus, all those years where I had to shovel snow and sweep the leaves by myself, well now you get a taste of your own medicine.
MAY YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE MISERABLY

Report Card Grades...

English - 90
AP Psychology - 90
Pre Calculus - 95
Government - 90
Guitar - 98
GYM - 90
Overall-96.63
I'm doing a lot better in school. I'M FINALLY ASIAN 8D