RESOLUTION

My main goal for 2009 is to find
PEACE&HARMONY
in my life.
Angee has noticed, and made me notice that I've been very angry lately [and hostile]. Time to be a bit happier =)
Happy New Year
Class of 2009<3

not ready

I've kinda checked into the fact that...
I'M NOT READY TO GROW UP.
I can't do things on my own, I have trouble speaking to people, writing is impossible, I can't fill out an application without getting seriously befuddled.
Either I need to stop aging, or just DIE x_x

Accents

Especially Asian accents drive me CRAZY. I hate them. My mom is pissed off because I refused to help her finish writing her stupid report because her words didn't fucking make sense and her accents literally drove me to tears. I HATE MY OWN FUCKING PEOPLE. I hate FOBs that only speak their own damn language all day, and its even worse when I actually understand them. Its like you don't want to understand them but you can't help it. I hate accents in general. Boston accents & Southern accents are the worse. I can't even stand the Staten Island/Long Island/Brooklyn/New York accent or whatever you call them. SOGIGASGOPUDFBLSRUDHUIOHNOHUTYASFLKBZHJDFHOT. LIFE SUCKS >=[

friends & their boy/girlfriends

Why the hell is is that every time someone gets a boyfriend or girlfriend they completely shut out the people who have been there for them for years and years. WTF this has happened so many times, its getting fucking ridiculous. DON'T PRETEND I'M NOT THERE ON OCCASION AND THEN WHEN YOU BREAK UP, YOU EXPECT ME TO CATCH YOU WHEN YOU'RE FALLING. Don't put me as your last priority and then expect yourself to be my first.
I FCKING HATE PEOPLE!!!

La La La La LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I think I was wrong. I know who my friends truly are.
Karaoke today. 4&1/2 hrs and my throat is sore >.<
<3angeladenniskaikristine
We've established a new group: Me, Angee & Dennis
totally [R.A.D.]
Yay

Merry Christmas

...or is it. I'm feeling really alone this holiday season...actually I've been feeling alone all year. Why does it feel like I'm losing friends. I always get depressed by this situation every so often. Its like, my best friends...they have other people as their first priority and I'm just here in last place. My wish this Christmas is to really know that I have people there for me almost whenever, and not only when they find the time to deal with me. Honestly, I'm not enjoying this year. I just want to move on and start college already. I just want to skip the rest of everything this year, including senior trip, prom AND graduation. I just want my yearbook, a chance for everyone to sign it and I'm out. Nothing really seems be working in my favor. I need to get out of the house as much as I possibly can. I need...to feel complete...

Dear Bitch

You are by far the worst sibling one can ever have. I don't know what I've ever done to you to make you treat me the way you do, but this is how you fucking treat me, and have done so for my entire life. 10 THINGS I SERIOUSLY FUCKING HATE ABOUT YOU
1. You treat me as a servant - The world has to revolve around you and we have to treat you as a fucking queen. This has transformed from "go to the store and fetch me some _________" to "come with me to __________ and help me carry pounds and pounds of shit home that you can use, but I'll fucking yell at you later for it." I'm not a fucking dog and I don't deserve to be treated as one. Just because you are 6+ years older than me doesn't give you the right to treat me as a slave.
2. Whatever you say goes (extending #1) - How is it that every fucking time I'm doing something to relax, you always have to fucking interrupt me. If I'm watching tv, "Give me the remote," but if its the other way around "go watch tv somewhere else." What the hell is fucking wrong with you. Why the hell do you always get what you want. Once again, just because you're older, it does not give you the right to fucking take control of everything.
3. You're full of yourself - Don't tell me to fucking listen to your how your day goes, what happened at work, what you bought, and then tell me to STFU when I try to say something about my day. Unless you want to hear what happened to my day, DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO LISTEN TO YOURS CUZ I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.
4. You're so fucking greedy (kinda falls under #3) - Why is it that you ALWAYS try to find a way to rip someone off. Whether it is buying something to get the free gift, and returning everything, buying something on sale and then returning it for the retail price, or just giving away gifts that were given to you. I know you may not like the gifts people give you but ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS. Gifts from the people you care about should have some sentimental value that makes you keep it even if you don't like it. Since none of them have any sentimental value, that shows that you don't care for anyone but yourself.
5. You take advantage of people - You found yourself a job, now why can't you stop abusing other people like me, and mom & dads money. Seriously, its time that you stop depending on other people, and then milking it dry. You only do this to us because we're family, but who knows how you're treating other people. DON'T YOU HAVE A CONSCIENCE OR A HEART TO THINK ABOUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE FEEL?
6. Move Out Already - Seriously, why don't you just do what most grown-ups do, get a drivers license, get a boyfriend, get a well paying job, AND GET THE FUCK OUTTA THE HOUSE. WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE, AND DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH YOUR BAD ATTITUDE ANYMORE. YOU'RE FUCKING 23 GOING ON 24, GET THE FUCK OUT!
7. Stop trying to tell me what to do with my life - Yeah, I know you screwed up your life and you want me to do a lot better but I know what decisions I want to make and I don't need you to tell me what to do. You're like the stereotypical mother when their child is applying for college, "LIVE MY DREAM". I know what I want to do with my life, and I don't intend on majoring in URBAN STUDIES, like seriously, you chose the major NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT, I know I can and will do a lot better
8. You do not respect my privacy&personal space - Okay, so I don't have a lock on my door. BUT IF YOU SEE SOMEONE STILL ASLEEP ON A SATURDAY/SUNDAY MORNING, YOU DO NOT BARGE INTO THEIR ROOM AND SIT ON THEM. THE DOOR IS FUCKING CLOSED FOR A REASON. You always make yourself too comfortable in my room, going through stuff I don't want you to touch. You are also not to make yourself comfortable in my room, AND THEN FUCKING KICK ME OUT OF IT. YOU'RE A GUEST IN MY ROOM SO WHY CAN'T YOU TREAT ME WITH RESPECT?
9. You take things from me - ever since I was a little girl and I saw my little hello kitty piggy bank thing in the kitchen with the lock broken and money missing, I knew for a fact that I CANNOT trust you. I know you take money from me because you always spend money shopping for yourself even if you don't have the money for it. How many more useless clothing and junk are you going to stock up on now? AND STOP TAKING THINGS FROM ME WITHOUT ASKING, it would be nice to get a heads up on things you need rather than tearing up my room looking for something you don't know the location of and leave the mess there.
10. YOU JUST DON'T REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU HURT PEOPLE - did you ever stop and think what everyone else feels like when you're fucking getting into arguments with them day and night. The only reason why I wanted mom to come back as soon as possible cuz I know she pisses you off, cuz she knows how you treat me. NO ONE CARES HOW YOU FEEL CUZ YOU'RE THE ONE WHO PISSES EVERYONE IN THIS FAMILY OFF.
Do you see how much I hate you and everyone else hates you? You don't know how to fucking treat people. And with all this hostility, I will end up fucking KILLING YOU ONE DAY. I HOPE YOU DO READ THIS AND GET A SENSE OF HOW FUCKED UP YOU REALLY ARE, CUZ IF IN THE NEAR FUTURE I DO END UP COMMITTING SUICIDE BECAUSE OF YOU, I HOPE THAT GUILTY CONSCIENCE WILL FOLLOW YOU TO YOUR GRAVE, AND I KNOW THEN YOU WILL HAVE A GUILTY CONSCIENCE CUZ WHEN I'M GONE, YOU WILL WITHOUT A DOUBT HAVE NO ONE.
Oh and the reason I didn't help you shovel snow was because your knocking on the door FUCKING WOKE ME UP FROM MY NAP. & plus, all those years where I had to shovel snow and sweep the leaves by myself, well now you get a taste of your own medicine.
MAY YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE MISERABLY

Report Card Grades...

English - 90
AP Psychology - 90
Pre Calculus - 95
Government - 90
Guitar - 98
GYM - 90
Overall-96.63
I'm doing a lot better in school. I'M FINALLY ASIAN 8D

in need of some

serious inspiration

the world is coming to an end

We're all going to die O.O
Oh well.

Mom: where did you get all this money??!!!
Me: I'm selling drugs mom -.-
-laughs-

At least she has a small sense of humor now ^^;

keep breathing

inhale, exhale.
spring break is almost here =) two more days.
then, let the studying begin

let go & kick it with the crew

Dear Rita,
Its been over a year [almost two]. You know for sure that nothing is going to happen, and it never will. Like Michelle said, you only have two choices, you can either let go and move on or keep pursuing it. You kind of know what is going to happen but you just keep telling yourself otherwise because its not something you want to let yourself know. In the end, I know you're going to be very hurt, DON'T DENY IT.
Its time to throw away all these dreams and memories, run the other direction and don't look back. You know that you've failed miserably and you will continue failing. Theres nothing you can do about it . MOVE ON YOU STUPID BITCH! MOVE ON!!!
Yours Truly,
Rita♥

Junior Year

SUCKS


nuff said

Hip, hop, leapidy leap

Today's post shall be a wonderful post since I won't be able to post another message on this day for another 4 years. ITS A LEAP YEAR =] &&
I HAVE SATs TOMORROW. HOLY CRAPPPPPPPPP >.<
Today was quite amusing...and terrible I guess. I got a 90 on that art project thing we had to do. I lost my bet with Ricky, so he gets his male pride and I still got a snack x]. Low paw made me an egg & cheese sandwich and some animal crackers to go along with it afterwards. I made a fool of myself during volleyball when i yelled out "GOT IT" but then when i swung my arms out for it, the ball just went over my arms and landed on the floor and I'm just standing there in that same position like ...Whaaaaat? Retarded x]. Physics was amusing. We were learning about standing waves...or something like that and he had this drill and string to demonstrate to us. Towards the end he's like "YESS, YESSS, YESSSSSSSSSS" and a whole bunch of people just died of laughter. It sounded like he was having an orgasm or something. It was really funny. After school, I was supposed to go to QC with Michelle and Dennis but I had a little problem. After going to the bank with them, my stomach had this hugeeee cramp and I was in so much pain. We sat in Red Mango for like an hour because my stomach hurt so much. I was trying to contact daddy but he didn't call me back until i was 1/2 way home. I feel a little better now and I'm hoping to look over a few things for tomorrow and try to get a good nights rest. Tomorrow I shall be leaving the house at around 6:50 to get to Forest Hills High School for the SATs. Wish me luckk :]

Study, udy, udy

I actually studied for SATs today. I went to Richmond Hill library and worked on the math sections with Hua Jingy. IDK, its hard to take it so seriously when its not the real thing. I mostly guessed using a most of the strategies my Princeton Review book has taught me. We were sitting there one minute and the next thing you know, HJ is like "you have 25 minutes to complete this section. GO" and I'm like oh shyt >.< I knew studying with her would be good cuz we actually studied, anyone else and we would have grabbed a magazine or something and started reading it lol. I learned to not use the word "anyways". I think I'm going to do some more practice problems. I'm not ready for the SATs and I only have like 4 more study days tops. Someone save me >.<

you step up, i'll STEP UP 2

Saw Step Up 2 today. I met up with Irene in Flushing and had dumplings, then toto's. I look so fat in th picture >.< oyy. Yearbook pictures are gonna be horrible. We walked to the College Point movie theaters. The movie was very cliche. We were like sitting there predicting everything that was going to happen and yeah, it was pretty corny. I liked the dancing though. It really makes me consider dropping the weight and taking dance lessons. So cool. We mostly just walked and talked about people and relationships, mainly the people in French & Physics class, and everyone else we know lol. It was quite amusing. We had Red Mango, yum, and I was able to convince Irene to take the train with me [I mainly just pushed her down the stairs x] and I really wanna just sit down for like a week and watch a marathon of chemistry class last year. I loved the class and all of the fun times in it. I wish I could relive it cuz I'm certainly not happy with junior year thats for sure =T. Must get cleaned up and... sleep?

kaa laa ohh kayy

Today was my first time Karaoke-ing. lol. It was quite fun. I forgot that today was technically a holiday so after waiting 1/2 hour for the Q37, I ended up taking the Q112 and when I got to Jamaica I was like wtf? Wheres the Q44. When I got to Flushing we go to Red Mango, then to Chinatown to eat, then to 34ST. When we got to the Karaoke place, it was full and Jessie didn't make any reservations so everyone else went back to Flushing besides me, Minju, Jessie, and Andy. Minju and I went to Korea Way. Got some shrimp crackers :] and went to random places like...STAPLES x]. When we went back to the karaoke place, Andy left so it was just me, Minju and Jessie. Minju sung the best [especially the Korean songs] I was jealous. My singing was horrible x[. It consisted of Hey There Delilah, Dirty Little Secret, Crank That Soulja Boy, Since U Been Gone, Goin' Crazy and for the finale HOLLABACK GIRL. I remember singing some Disney songs as well and we totally shook the place. Minju and Jessie were just so loud and I was just so horrible that I gave myself a headache afterwards. My throat still hurts now by the way. We went to Arby's afterwards :]. Yum, curly fries. Tomorrow I MUST start studying for SATs. I don't have much time left, theres just a little more than a week >.< Oy, I don't know what to do.

untitled post

Today is Sunday and I'm totally bored. My dad is watching tv behind me and its really loud. Either hes becoming deaf or he was trying compete with my music -.- Its been 3 days since Valentines Day and the rose Kristiney gave me seems to still be in good shape. I remember at the end of 8th pd. on Thursday, Michelle's roses were like turning brown [the outter petals] but mine are still nice and red. Theres a itty bitty bit of black on the top of the front petal but that's about it. Aww, she picked the best rose for me [er...maybe she didn't pick it herself but whatever]. I'm taking SATs in less that 2 weeks and I'm really scared. I spent yesterday afternoon studying a bit and then last night trying to finish as much homework as possibly could. I just need to do my art project and my US history homework, which I'll get done today. I wanted to clean and maybe rearrange my room again?
I got a letter in the mail yesterday about Yearbook pictures. They're supposed to be from Feb 26 - 29. I was like what?! Yearbook pictures already?! Damn, time is going by really quickly =(. Not to mention I'm not at all photogenic and I'm probably going to have a horrible picture. I shall spend all week controlling acne and getting rid of dark circles under my eyes. Though I noticed this morning that they were lighter. I put this thing Ana has under my eyes [they're supposed to get rid of sun spots] and idk, my dark circles seem lighter. Or maybe I got a little too much sleep ^.^ but I don't think so. Some days when I get 10+hrs of sleep, they're still there. Wheeee. To my room! Feng Shui! I shall bring harmony to my room xP

vday `08

Today wasn't as bad as I thought I'd be. I've noticed that every Vday, I'm late for school & each year, the number of singing telegrams I see increases. Once again College Now was a total drag. This girl got like 6 huge balloons, a box with something inside and a teddy bear. It was cute. I thought she'd be happy or something but when she walked it shes like WTF. I'd be pissed if I had to carry that around too lol. But it's sweet.
Oh, I don't get math anymore. Radian? wtf.
I got a rose in 5th period. When the guy came in and called my name, my entire English class was like "whoooooo" cuz they thought it was from a boy. It was from Kristiney <33. She loves me more than any boy...and she loves me more than her boy xD. No singing telegram for me :]. One girl got one in GYM. It was a Korean song & I'd really like to know the title of the song cuz I thought it was really good. During physics I was like stumbling over with my camera trying to get a video of the singing telegram we sent to Salamon. It was quite funny. Enjoy

Day before the end...

Pre-Valentines day I guess? All the snow outside kinda turned in mush this morning but then since it was raining all day, the snow was all gone, everything.
So tomorrow is V-day. I have quite a few once again but its not ALL that I want. I have been warned that I will be getting a singing telegram 5th period tomorrow. Ack. Out of all classes that?! Well, I'm still waiting to see if I'm gonna get one in GYM, that would suck the MOST. When I get home tomorrow [which will be pretty early], I will be with my first love, math 8D LMAO. Yeah whatever. What to wear tomorrow? Black again?
Who would've thought ONE boy would kill a day [maybe 2] and then the rest of HS? *stab stab*
Life sucks. Let me crawl into a ditch and die -.-

Snowy Evening

Stupid shit. For once, the snow actually stuck to the ground. As I walked out of school I thought to myself: "shit, i have to shovel snow when I get home". It was fun sliding around to the bus stop. Right before we got to Northern Blvd, there was this hill thing and obviously the bus drivers didn't want to take a risk down that hill cuz 1. it was slippery and 2. if anything happens, their asses are in trouble. Michelley & I got off the bus and we WALKED to Flushing. Many people just waited at the bus stop for another bus but by the time we walked all the way to Flushing, there had only been 1 bus that passed by and none of them had Baysiders on it. I'm tired and I'm pissed. I have homework to do after this and I'm so so so so tired. I want to run around my backyard. The snow there is so clean and untouched. I danced my way into the driveway because it looked so pretty lol.
On a second note, I bombed my math test today...yay.... >=(
Oyy. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

resize&rewrite

Basically what I've been doing all day is resizing my mp3's using Audio Editor. I saved about 1GB of space on my computer and I have plenty more to do. Hopefully I can save a lot of space and I can then fit more songs in whatever new mp3 player I decide to get.
There are like sex pictures that leaked onto the internet of Chinese popstars. My mom thinks I'm stupid enough to ever let that happen to me -.-
I started studying for SATs. Thats good...right?
I'm thirsty.
Must finish homework, cleaning room, and study!

All mighty book

I got $330 for Chinese New Year this year ^.^ Not the $400 I usually get but I'm okay with it. I spent $20 on the Princeton Review book for SATs. Hopefully it will help me a lot. In art class we have to draw the soundtrack to our life. I had 2 okay ideas but I still need one more. I guess I should work on that, and the resume I have to do for College Now. It's really gay >.< yesterday he spent at least 10 minutes explaining to us how to save our stuff on the computer. 1. Save file onto computer 2. Email it to yourself. Seriously >.< This morning Jane & I snuck into Ms. Wongs freshman class. She got really annoyed when I tried to answer every single question but I couldn't resist, IT WAS MATH A! I miss it soo much. I'm having a bit of trouble with those word problems with parabolas. I feel like we're far behind, aren't we supposed to be up to Advance Trig? This weekend I will definitely start studying for SATs. Got the book and everything =D. Right now, I think I want to watch some television before I get started xD.

Sleep

I've been having a hard time sleeping lately. I was able to sleep last night very easily after reading Huckleberry Finn, but I'm still having trouble waking up. I tried to drag myself up at 5 this morning and I left at 6:30 like I did before since College Now started again. I don't like it. I seriously want Castro again. Waxman put us in assigned seats and I hate assigned seats. He speaks with suck a monotone voice and I feel like this next semester is going to be torture. I'm taking Lily's word that hes really easy and I'm going to pass really easily cuz if not, I want to drop the class.
I fell asleep during US History again >.<
Irene, Michelley, Nikola, Rochelle & I buy singing telegram for a certain someone xD. Wonder which one he'll be more embarrassed by- "Hey There Delilah" or a chinese song. Either way, it should be funny and I'll be sure to get it on camera and post it here xD This should be quite amusing.
Things to do: homework, study for test, get ready for tomorrow cuz I will be celebrating Chinese New Year with mommy since she doesn't have the day off on Thursday =T oyy

Volleyball, oh how I miss thee. Tomorrow maybe? xD

Supah

The GIANTS won the superbowl last night. Yay. Surprisingly, I understood the game o.O After the game ended, Ana said that some of our neighbors set off fireworks and I was like ...wow... I haven't seen something so intense since the game between Hewitt and Bagdatis [or something like that] in the Australian Open. Intense. My college now class starts tomorrow and I have no idea how I'm gonna wake up at 6 again. I already have a hard time waking up at 7 and leaving before 7:30 for 2nd period. Oyyy this is gonna be a big pain in the butt. I'm thinking about getting a singing telegram for someone ^.^ doubt I will though xP. Oh yeah, must do homework that is due tomorrow and homework that was due... today... argh. This totally sucks. I SHALL NOT SLACK OFF

Dancing in the RAIN

I woke up pretty early this morning -5:40 for Key Club. I didn't really like the elections because it was so hard to choose >.< For once the Q112 came early and I had to run to the bus stop & if I had went back to get my umbrella, I would not have made it. The day went by pretty quickly. After school I went to Flushing Mall with Michelle and Dennis for those lovely pan fried dumpling I haven't had in a long time, and Red Mango. A lot of people were right, Red Mango does taste better than Pinkberry. I think its because Red Mango was not as sweet, I enjoyed it a lot better. It was raining pretty hard and I didn't have my umbrella. When I got to 74th ST, there was a lot of water leaking on the R/V track & it looked like it was flooding so I tried to get out of there as quickly as possible. When I got to Union Turnpike, there was no Q37 there already so I had to wait. Tt was raining really hard and I had no umbrella. I stood in line waiting for the bus and like...dancing at the bus stop, I'm not sure if people saw me but who cares, they need to loosen up a little and do stupid things just for the fun of it...then again...they were like old so they wouldn't get it =P. When I was walking home, I was dancing again to Like Whoa by Aly & AJ. Diana bought me the INSPI(RED) shirt that I wanted over a year ago x]. She says its for the good grades on my report card. YAY. My mom didn't mention anything about it though. I spent like 10 minutes watching this video from Bad Girls Club like over and over and over again with Ana and now I'm ready to get some rest. Plans for this weekend: 1. Homework 2. SAT studying [though I have a feeling I'm not gonna get to this one >.<]
Like WHOAAAAA

Final 1st Semester

I must say I'm quite pleased with my grades for once :]. I guess all that hard work paid off:
College Now Web Design 95
Math BH 94
French 80 [arghhhh. ruins the big picture]
Art Appreciation 92
English 91
GYM 85 [doesn't get averaged in anyways]
PhysicsH 91
US History 92 [o.O]
Overall Average: 92.04%
Yay. This is the first 90+ average I've seen since 6th grade. Shows how much I've been slacking off huh? I'm uber duber happy xD. Goal for next semester 95? Ehh...I think I should try to keep that 90+ instead of aiming that high. Apparently 55% of the people that took the Math B regents failed. It really worries me. Will I be ready enough to pass it in June? My goal for math is 90+ cuz I'm sucha math nerd 8D. I'm not sure if i can do it >.< I spent part of my afternoon with Michelley. I carried her huge display board around Elmhurst -.- and now I must do those practice regents problem things... Ahh. I wish this week would be over and I can sleep in again. Did I mention I was late this morning? Woke up at 7...went back to sleep and woke up at 8. I asked my dad to drive me so I ended up being 5-10 minutes late. If I had taken the bus instead, I would have been early...for 3rd period. I won't let that happen...I needed my new schedule and report card xD

Trashy

That's currently how I'm feeling. I woke up this morning with some crummy feeling inside of me, as if I've lost myself. I'm beginning to think back, far back to my middle school years and I see that I've really changed. 6th grade was all about sucking up to the push over teachers. It was pretty easy getting good grades from them since I just sat there quietly and was not part of the "girlfriends" or "bitches" or and of the other groups of people that thought they were "cool". I didn't trash the room like they did or give blow jobs in class so that was like a bonus for me. My depression started in 7th grade. I went to the psychiatrist for A.D.D., but I found myself depressed, which probably made it seem like I had A.D.D. In 8th grade I did nothing, absolutely nothing and my grades went down the drain, but knowing that I'd be leaving made me somewhat happy...scared... but happy (though I was disappointed that I didn't get into Forest Hills). I see myself today as the total opposite of all that. I actually do my homework and care about my grades (although trying my hardest does not even get me a 90), I'm happy (well...somewhat), and I know that I don't have to try to fit in cuz technically, I already do (especially within the swarm of Asians at Bayside). I'm thinking this trashy feeling may end up following me through the rest of high school, college, medical school? xD. Doesn't hurt to aim high...or dream...

Song count

1714 O.O Woah... I need a new music player. I shall purchase one after Chinese New Year...which is coming up sooooon :D Feb. 7 Yo, counting the days xD
So I finish beating my game...again. I'm totally bored and I haven't got off my computer yet. Must finish midterm...like ahh.....
I shall download more songs =D
I feel accomplished. I was going through Amy's blog and I wish I had not abandoned my own a few months ago. What can I say? After Angela moved, I didn't feel like writing in it since she was the one I spent a lot of time with. IDK. I think I'm going to ditch facebook again and come back to my blog =D. Though I highly doubt there would ever be something to write about. There has been so little to write about. I just go straight on the Q31 and go straight home, nothing interesting or special. Except on Fridays where I spend a lot of time at QC cuz of Michelle and Dennis. I wish everything could just go back to the way they were last year, or even freshman year. Beatriz would be here instead of Florida and I could see her every weekend, Kristine would be by my side and I could actually see her smiling instead of crying and breaking phones cuz of Alex, the one I thought I loved would still talk to me, and Angela would make sure that I wasn't the one all left out and such. It seems that everyone is paired off, whether its with a boyfriend or a best friend and I'm kinda left out of all of that. I'm not as happy as I used to be & I guess it's meant to be that way. I will not go through depression again, HELL FCKING NO, but I would like to be happy.

So lazy

So this past regents week was spent either in my room playing Sims Bustin' Out on my gameboy [beating it for the 12587439578394th time], on the couch sleeping and watching the Australian Open, or just...sleeping. Thursday I went to Manhattan to play volleyball. Michelle broke my needle so we couldn't play xP. I should have been finishing my math midterm which was UBER DUBER hard! Like, UBER DUBER hard.
xlog27=x+9log3
2radicalx+1=6/radicalx
@_@ I have 2 days to figure it all out >.<
I finished registration for March SATs. I shall be going to Forest Hills High, my preferred high school -.-, with my uber awesome & smart Hua Jingy. She thinks shes not ready, Pshh. If anyone is not ready, that would be me! If you got into Queens HS for Sciences at York [which is already too hard for me to remember the name of], you're more ready than I am. I shall start studying after i get my lazy butt off the couch/bed/computer chair. The rest of this year shall be crap -.-