Merry Christmas

...or is it. I'm feeling really alone this holiday season...actually I've been feeling alone all year. Why does it feel like I'm losing friends. I always get depressed by this situation every so often. Its like, my best friends...they have other people as their first priority and I'm just here in last place. My wish this Christmas is to really know that I have people there for me almost whenever, and not only when they find the time to deal with me. Honestly, I'm not enjoying this year. I just want to move on and start college already. I just want to skip the rest of everything this year, including senior trip, prom AND graduation. I just want my yearbook, a chance for everyone to sign it and I'm out. Nothing really seems be working in my favor. I need to get out of the house as much as I possibly can. I need...to feel complete...